I am not the only person who goes through this, yet I am alone in what I go through. The pre-determined events give us a purpose. But what after you have lived through it and do not wish to continue any more. What if you think you are done? Am I too old to get out of this loop, or am I too young to quit this? We know few things have lived its life but why can’t we say it loud? Why is it that whatever we do or think of doing has to be evaluated as right or wrong, good or bad, why can’t it be left without judgement?
Why every step we take has to be thought through? Why can’t few things be left the way they are, a thought, an impulse, a let out? Is it not enough to know that someone is just OK doing what they did? The frustration builds up and the feeling is suffocating. This is not something one can share, it is impossible to explain. But then, you want to. You want someone to listen with the hope that may be you’ll finally meet someone who understands that it is possible to not be happy despite everything being perfect in life. That having found the one, doesn’t guarantee a happily ever after. Some stories, some souls look for something unknown for their gratification and that sometimes it takes time to figure this out. That it is OK to be lost.
The Mirror View 